Mood:  hug me

Time and time again, I'm seeing people cry.

Hopeless, lost tears, streaming down dirtied face, leaving trails of mud.

Sadness fills my heart and I grow apathetic, unable to take the emotions bombarding my soul.

It hurts to know that emotions are what make me emotionless.

I find comfort in things most people laugh at.

Stuffed toys, graphic novels, drawing, romance stories.

They fill that empty space, making me feel again.

I laugh without laughing, smile with cheer, hide behind false faces to hide my pain within.

I try to talk, but no one listens, no one understands.

I want to be free from this body, free from the pain, from the emotions and emotionless that I use for confort.

I lost my sanctuary, no idea where it is. I want to be held with meaning, to be loved, to have someone understand. To know. To listen.

Because time and time again, all I feel....

Is nothing.