Mood: hug me
Now Playing: Sahara by Nightwish
Time and time again, I'm seeing people cry.
Hopeless, lost tears, streaming down dirtied face, leaving trails of mud.
Sadness fills my heart and I grow apathetic, unable to take the emotions bombarding my soul.
It hurts to know that emotions are what make me emotionless.
I find comfort in things most people laugh at.
Stuffed toys, graphic novels, drawing, romance stories.
They fill that empty space, making me feel again.
I laugh without laughing, smile with cheer, hide behind false faces to hide my pain within.
I try to talk, but no one listens, no one understands.
I want to be free from this body, free from the pain, from the emotions and emotionless that I use for confort.
I lost my sanctuary, no idea where it is. I want to be held with meaning, to be loved, to have someone understand. To know. To listen.
Because time and time again, all I feel....